FAT

You know how you see yourself in a picture and you think, dang, is that how I really look!?!?!? I see myself so much thiner than I really am. Last week, we took a family trip to the Safari Park in San Diego. It was really hot out and I was in shorts and a tank top. Victor took this picture of me sitting while having a cocktail and this cute little place we found. I almost had a heart attack when I saw this picture and others from the day. HOLY. Is that what I really look like!?!? Apparently it is.

I have been meaning to start running again, because honestly, that's when I've felt my best! I need to feel my best! Lately I have been so down about being fat, not feeling comfortable in my own body. That's not where I like to be. And I know, some of you (or maybe not) are thinking, you JUST had a baby. Give it some time. Dude, that baby I JUST had is going to be 6 months soon! That was an excuse I could tell myself for a little while but not anymore! I did tell myself that it took 9 months to put on that weight, I at least have to give myself 9 months to take it off right? That's only fair! Well it's about 6 months now and if I don't start, I won't make it to my goal of 9 months. It's not only for my health but for my piece of mind, sanity and overall confidence! My confidence has always been pretty low but it feels like it's at an all time low these days.

I woke up this week and decided I was going to do something about it... AGAIN. I have done this before and kicked some butt when I put my mind towards it. So here I am blogging about it to hold myself accountable! We moved to Irvine a few weeks ago and there are a ton of trails to run! I am in a great place right now because I don't have to take the kids in the morning which means I can get up early and go run, be back, shower and off to work by my normal time. Done! I ran on Tuesday and then again today! I always say this, but I forget how awesome it feels to run. To get out of my head. To feel my feet hitting the pavement, pushing my body forward! Time to myself with my music blazing in my ears. The songs I love, the songs that push me to go faster. The mornings are amazing to watch just in itself, but knowing that I am out running and feeling great, it's something I can't describe!

Not only am I running but I started to keep track of everything I put in my mouth, EVERYTHING! I started to use this really cool app called My Fitness Pal. It allows me to log everything and even has all the calories and everything already programed into it so it's super easy to use! It even has a portion that you can keep track of your exercise and drinking water! It tells you how many calories you should have and subtracts every time you log in something. It's seriously great!

Another thing that motivates me is seeing everyone in my family, super large and over weight. Not just a little overweight and not just a few people. We are talking almost every single person that I am related to. With the exception of a few cousins... everyone in my family is very FAT! I can count 6 people in my family who has had a surgery to help them lose weight. It really hasn't helped any of them! I don't want to be that 400 pound family member that has to have surgery because I can't do it myself. That is a really lame excuse if you ask me and from the looks of it, it really doesn't work well.

So here I am, 4 days into eating healthy and running... I am feeling really good about it. I am keeping track of my weight and weighing in once a week. Tomorrow is my first weigh in and I know I had to have lost something! Here's to a healthier life style for me! This will be the LAST picture I am ever that heavy in!

Father's Day

Father's Day this year Victor had to work in the evening so we took him and his dad out to breakfast! I got Jack dressed up in his cute hat and "Daddy's Allstar" shirt for Victor.

 

 

Now the proud daddy of these two adorable children!

 

 Oscar has been Victor's dad and mentor since he was about 5 years old. This man has treated Victor like his son since that day. I am forever grateful for him. He has really helped mold Victor into the dad he is today. I am thankful to him. He is a wonderful Grandpa to my babes and is always there to support us. He is quite but mighty!

 

Later in the day I went out to Corona and brought my daddy some dinner and hung out there with him for awhile. He played and sang to Jack! The one thing he LOVES to do is to sing his crazy songs to our babies! Love my daddy, I am a lucky girl!

Celebrate Good times

Alana has been going to preschool for 2 years at Love 2 Learn. We found it online a few years ago and I really liked the people who we meet with. Victor and I meet with a few different preschools, but when we came to this one, we really liked it. The location was perfect, it was a good price and it felt right! Before Alana went into Preschool I really wasn't a big believer in them. I never went to Preschool, from what I can remember, neither of my sisters did. It just wasn't something I thought Alana even needed. She is such a smart child and was learning so much from me and Victor. Putting her into Preschool excelled her more than I would have ever thought. Being an only child for almost 5 years, she learned about Teamwork and sharing! I watched her learn her letters and how to write and read. It's been an amazing 2 years for her in Preschool. I feel like she's grown up so much. The first year she went through a few teachers, but as soon as she got Mrs. Michelle as her teacher last year she really started to do so much better. She tells me that she loves Mrs. Michelle and it's a really cute relationship. They give each other a hug goodbye in the afternoon and she loves to help Mrs. Michelle. Her teacher tells me every week what a great helper she is! She learned how to cut with scissors really well and she would always help the other kids. Mrs. Michelle would go on and on about what a good helper she is and how she is really great at teaching the other kids! This totally explains why she sits in her room and plays "school" with her animals and teaches them everything! We will miss Mrs. Michelle, she was a great influence on Alana and such a happy teacher!                 I mean, you would have to be kinda crazy to teach a bunch of 4 and 5 year olds all day and still be happy right?

 

Love 2 Learn had a cute little ceremony for the kids last week. I couldn't get enough of her in her "cap and gown"... kinda ridiculous right? But I soaked up every moment!

 

Alana and Mrs. Michelle

Mommy and her Preschool grad!

 

 Since Victor couldn't make it, I got her flowers from him, she loved the fact that she got flowers. Not many of the parents brought their kids flowers. I thought it was cute!

 

 Grandma and Grandpa there to support her! I can't wait to get this same picture of the three of them at her College Graduation! *tear* 

 

This was her official picture at school. Kinda Cheesy, but you know I had to buy one!

 

Here is a little video of her and her class signing "Celebrate Good times". It was cute.

Now and then...

 

 

Reasons I am so happy I have kept a blog since Alana was born!

Alana's first time on a swing at about 5 months and Jack's first time on a swing at the same age! It's amazing to see the pictures of them at the same age! Everyone thinks Jack is so big, but Alana was just as big and chunky. You would never be able to tell that now at 5 years old, tiny, petite Alana. Poor Jack man doesn't have half of the hair Alana had. Hopefully he grows into that!

Love my babies!

Flashback Friday

At this end of this month it will be 6 years since this awesome day! I will say it was by far one of the best days of my life. I swear in 4 more years when we hit our 10 year, I want another wedding! I would do our wedding day over again in a heart beat! This year Victor and I will be together for 10 years. That's sooooo long! So much longer than I ever thought possible to be honest. But I love this guy and the family we have made together so much!