Sunday, November 20, 2016

Smalls Gonzalez

This week has been a tough week. Smalls stopped eating a few days ago that we noticed. She's been pretty blind and deaf for a few years now but she's always been over pretty normal. She runs out when we come out there, she eats bowls full of food every day. She pretty much was a normal old lady doggy until this week. We brought her inside and gave her lots of lovin, but realized that she wouldn't even take a hot dog or cheese out of our hands, she would just keep her mouth closed and turn her nose. At one point I started to force feed her with a sirnge some Pedilyte just so she wouldn't be dehydrated. After about 4 days of debating what to do with her yesterday she was slowly walking and her back legs kept giving out and she would kind of fall. Just the back half of her body. She wasn't able to hold herself up anymore and I knew at that point that Victor and I had to make a decision on what to do with her. She wasn't whining or whimpering like she was in pain, but after not eating and now she could barely walk, we knew we had to take her in and have her put down. We took her into the vet and they told us that there wasn't a whole lot they could do. So we said our goodbye's and gave her hugs and kisses and they took her away. It was a very hard decision to make, but I think it was the best for my Smalls. 
When Victor and I started dating 14 years ago, we got Smalls from his sister when she was just a baby and we took her home and made her our new baby. She slept in the bed with us, she rode in the car, went everywhere we went and we even at one point bought a pouch to carry her in when we went bike riding. She was our baby! One weekend while we went out of town, she stayed at Grandma's house and got knocked up by Tigger... She gave us 3 beautiful little puppies to love and take care of! That was the best expierence ever! In her old years she pretty much just layed around and soaked up the sun. Ate and just hang out with her sister Roxy. We will miss our little Smallsy! But she is out of pain now, hanging out in doggy Heaven! Miss you already Smallsy girl. You were my first baby doggy and we will miss you being part of our family. 


Tuesday, March 18, 2014

What's been goin on

I know it's horrible but I just haven't been able to keep up with my blog as much as I'd like to. Second child syndrome? Totally. Poor Jack doesn't get 15 blogs a month about what he is doing these days, like Alana did. But hey, I am trying!!
The last month has been filled with fun stuff, keeping busy, getting out in the sun on these beautiful winter days! It's not even Spring yet and we have been up in the 80's. It's madness! But we are soaking up the sun! This last weekend we bought a yearly family pass to the Aquarium of the Pacific. I am excited to spend our time off during the summer! There is a lot of fun things for Alana to learn about there!

A visit to Aquarium of the Pacific
Feeding the birds
Jack's bath time!

Just kickin it - such a handsome boy

Helping mommy unload the dishwasher

Alana and mommy craft time! She made these for the family and
we bought little candies to act as pots of gold to put inside them.

Believe it or not, the sun was hot enough for a pool day! Too bad the pool was FREEZING!
We will see how Jack does this summer. He was not at all interested in the pool.
He seriously is beautiful. I could look at this picture for hours.

My handsome little guy

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Stash Bash

My little man turned 1 years old! Where has the time gone? It's been a great year and I love the hell out of my little guy. He loves some snugglin time with mommy. He calls out mommy when he is sad or scared. He loves to give kisses. He loves to snuggle with dad under the covers in the morning. Jack has such a love for Alana it's amazing to see. He will just walk into a room and hug her. And of course Alana eats it all up. She loves her baby brother! 

The week leading up to his birthday party he was teething like crazy. Even maybe sick, it's hard to tell the difference with this guy. Runny nose, fever, just not feeling well. I really debated even having a party for him because he was just walking around the house crying, sad and I didn't want to just shove him into a party while feeling so horrible. The party was at the park right by our house so I just figured he would be fine and everyone else could play anyway in case he wasn't. 

My decor for the party came together at last minute. As always with me these days. But it came out great and I loved all the pictures of him with his stash! 

How many times do you think I had to explain this one? One too many.

Grandma provided this awesome pinata full of yummy mexican candy! My favorite. 

 Almost every single person that I invited to the party came. It was a full park with tons of friends and family. The kids had such a fun time! Meanwhile, Jack was in someone's arms either crying or trying to sleep. 

 Jack did ok with opening presents, but we are always so lucky to have such a willing little Alana to help out! Presents are her favorite part! Jack got lots of nice gifts and I am so very grateful for everyone and how generous everyone is!

Family picture! Happy Birthday little buddy. I am sorry you didn't feel well!

 It was finally SMASH CAKE TIME!! This poor little guy hadn't eaten much in the entire week leading up to his birthday party, so I didn't think he would want to really eat the cake either. Boy was I WRONG.

I had to get this picture because we took one with Alana the same way! Mom and dad lovin!! 

I got Alana with some cake as well. Made her giggle. Love my girl.

Jack really got into the cake and just keep eating away. I thought for sure he was going to get sick from all the sugar. He just kept eating.

And eating, and smashing between his hands and then sticking it in his mouth!

His non-smash cake that we got to eat. Designed by me!

Time to beat this bad boy up! He did take a few whacks, but all the kids that came really kicked it's butt and made all of the candy come out!

One of the only pictures of Jack smiling from the entire day, heck, that entire week. But Grandma does that to him. He is such a Grandma's boy! 

I love this picture of him and Aunt Jacquie! Her smile makes this picture!

This pretty much sums up the day! Poor little birthday guy pretty much was grumpy and not feeling well the entire party. Grandpa thought it was a good idea to make the same face. Cracks me up!

The weather was perfect for a January day, everyone we loved was there, it was a perfect day, even if this little man of mine wasn't feeling so well. Happy Birthday to our little buddy! Our first year with you has been trying! You are not as easy as your big sister was, but I love you for being so different! You are full of joy but are so SERIOUS most of the time! Alana can make you laugh like no other. You have a smile when you see me after a long day that just melts my heart. Love you my little man!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Change is good!

That's right, I said it, change is good! Embrace it. Take those lemons and squeeze them all over your wounds! It’s gonna hurt a little but suck it up and move on!

Leaving EPL was a hard decision for me. I was safe there, could have worked there for another 10 years. My boss loved me, thought I could do no wrong, let me have time off when I needed to, let me work from home some days just because. It was an easy job just because I was good at it. The amount of love I got when I left was the best part. People in HR telling me if I ever wanted to come back to just call, my boss tell me that my desk is empty if I want to come back. The people were awesome (well most of them), I’ve made some lifelong friends there! Leaving there was scary, but I had to take the leap! I took a position over at M’s that looked to be full of excitement! They were going to be on the upswing soon, and I was going to help be part of it! It was a great opportunity for me to get out of IT and try something different to “be in the mix” of things.

Less than 60 days on the new job at M’s and I find out they are closing our office in Irvine. Fuck me. I just left this great job and a great company to just be booted out like yesterday’s trash. This news could not have come at a worse time. With only a few weeks before Christmas we had a big company meeting. The week leading up to this meeting was the most stressful of all! People think they know what’s happening, everyone has their own versions of what they have heard from so and so. Stress took me over, was I being let go right after the meeting? I’ve not been here long enough to get any kind of package. I couldn’t sleep, I ate WAY too much. I couldn’t stop talking about what might be going on. My nights were filled with thoughts of having to break our lease and give up our house, sale my car, put my children in one bedroom…. All the craziness goes through my head. I could only think of worse case. Nothing would really be wrong with any of the scenarios above, but I just didn’t want to pick up and change everything because of a bad choice I made.

The morning of the meeting I am so sick to my stomach and in tears so many times. This was it, I was going to be unemployed in an hour from now, tossed out of the building, badge taken and sent on my way….

My boss somewhat helped me to feel better and tells me that it was not happening today and I would be one of the last people to leave. But what did that mean? Meeting time happens, we find out they are closing our office in Irvine. I have a job for 3 more months. Some people only had two months, but some of us had 3. My first thought; I can find a job in 3 months! Easy Peasy! BIG relief off of my shoulders. Kinda. The rest of the day was filled with drinking, and LOTS of it. I am pretty sure I consumed at least an entire bottle of top shelf vodka myself! The company was paying and I was drinking! HA.

Hubby picked me up, got home, shed lots of tears, went to bed. Got up the next day, put on my big girl panties, came into work and started the process to find a new job! I had my night of tears, my week of stress, I was ready to hit the ground running! My resume was the easy part, after all, I had just gotten this new job a few months ago, so I just had to throw on my new role and be done! Some people that had been here for longer than I took it more personal and had and is having a much harder time! I can understand and I feel bad for some of the people that have been a M’s for 20 something years. It was easier for me to be positive about it because I think I am a pretty positive person in general, but I had only been here for such a short time! The decision was already made and I knew I could do nothing about it, so just get your crap together and start putting yourself out there!

My new found love is LinkedIn! My cousin who is a recruiter had told me how powerful it was months ago, but I didn’t get it until now. Of course my job search started with Google. But as I would find a job posted I went to LinkedIn to see who I knew that worked at that company. I have heard it OVER and OVER in the last few years, and boy it’s SO true; You have to know someone to get your foot in the door to any company these days. LinkedIn has been key to my job search. Before I knew it I had 4 phone interviews lined up in one week! All with the help of different people I knew that had worked at one of those companies. All because of LinkedIn! Most people don’t mind passing your resume onto someone they know. If you don’t ask, you will never find out!

One of the things my boss told me when we found out the news about losing our jobs was, if I needed time to take calls or interview, please take it! He said he would give me a great reference, after all, he felt super bad about just hiring me and then having to turn around and let me go. This worked to my advantage. My first phone interview was with *bucks. In checking out their website, they had an entire webpage with tips on your resume and how to prepare for an interview with them. It was in fact a really great way to brush up on my interviewing skills! All four of my phone interview went really well! They all promised 2nd interviews. I was hitting the ground running for sure. It was a great feeling. I had some great experience and people wanted to talk to me. It had been less than 3 weeks since dooms day and I was kicking butt!
The next week followed with 2nd interviews and even a third. Then a job offer!!! I don’t even understand how things can move so fast sometimes, but the next thing I knew I was putting my notice into M’s! You can’t fire me, I quit!

Blowing this Popsicle stand for the Bell! They are such an awesome and LARGE company! Very hip, full of young people, energy, and they do a LOT of fun things, it’s like it was made for me! I will be supporting 3 Directors on the Restaurant Excellence team. I start there in February and am really excited for things to come! Lots of great opportunities to show my skills and a lot of chances to move around within a great company! They are really focused on personal and professional development. That’s really important to me these days. The perks I will get for working for the Bell are pretty awesome! They really thought long and hard about what will attract the best people! Between daycare on campus, a gym, a salon and restaurants, they had me at hello.

In talking to my current President at M’s this morning he told me that their CEO is one of the best out there! I really respect our President and have no hard feelings towards him for the decisions that have been made here. I don’t take it personally and I’m not one to burn bridges. It makes me sad to have no choice to leave a company where I really enjoy. I enjoy the management and our President. He is that guy that walks around and knows your name and says good morning. He is that guy that tells me that I will do great things and will be such a great asset to the Bell. It was great to hear. I am going to miss the people I have bonded with in the last four months. Sad to go, but so excited for the opportunity I have been presented! More updates on the new awesome job once I start! More to come on the awesome weight loss journey that is on it’s way. It has been shown in my past, if I am happy at my job, it reflects in my attitude, my home life and my life in general! Here’s to a new change and a new start for 2014!

Tuesday, December 31, 2013


This year was Jack's first Christmas and he was ready for it! We've had the tree up for a month, we moved all the decorations from the bottom and for the most part he stayed away from it. For the most part. He has been a walking little man for a few months now and he is only getting better and faster! Victor's hotel hosted a Holiday party for their employees so we had a fancy night out and left the kiddo's at home with Auntie Crystal. It was such a nice night! The people he works with are really great, and the hotel spears no cost to put on a great party. Dinner, dancing, casino, drinks, photo booth, all kinds of fun stuff to do! This was the only picture I took all night. Lame I know! I wore lipstick and my Grandma's pearls and this is the only picture I have to show for it!

Christmas eve is always spent at Grandma's house eating tamales, playing games and then opening presents with all the kids. It's something I look forward to every year since I met Victor.
There was a very serious game of domino's going on and Alana was keeping score for the first round. She decided she wanted to play the second round and won the first two games. Playing with experts with years of experience. She is awesome! She loves to play games and does really well at them!

We exchanged gifts and then headed home to put together Jack's bike and pull out all of the stuff from Santa! This year Alana really wanted a Barbie that rides the horse. We decided to get Jack this cute Radio Flyer bike that we can push him in and then he can ride on his own when he learns. Finally about 1am Victor and I were done and headed to bed!

The sun came out and no sign of Alana! Finally about 8am she woke up... at her age we were up before the sun to see what Santa brought us and then we would have to wait for the sun to come up before we could go wake my parents up! Some of her favorite presents of the morning were from Aunt Ashley and Amy, and Auntie Crystal! This crazy kitty cat that she wanted had been wrapped and meowing all week long every time you turned on and off the kitchen light. We tried hard to play it off like we didn't hear it. Alana swore there was a cat in the kitchen, after a few days she even put two and two together and realized it was the one she had seen and wanted at the store before. I played it off like dad wrapped all the presents so I didn't know. HA! She is a smart girl though!

After the kids were done opening it was my turn! We got Victor a nice Angels watch and new Angels Leather wallet! He loved it! But then it was my turn. I had two boxes, the first I opened and it looked like a Camel back for hiking. I was happy about it, I thought it might be a good chance to get out and start hiking! Victor saw the look of confusion on my face and said it was a new diaper bag. Hmmmm... Then I flipped over the tag and it said camera bag! OH BUDDY! Bring on the camera! I couldn't wait to get it in my hot little hands! I couldn't believe that after millions of years of wanting a professional camera I had one! Victor has always been a great gift giver (well before we had kids) but this year takes the cake for sure! Thank you my love! I always borrow my sisters and now I have one of my own! Don't get me wrong, my little 5 year old point and shot still works, but I've wanted a Cannon for awhile now! They just take the best quality pictures! Can't wait to post some pics I've taken with it!

The rest of the morning we headed out to Corona to do Christmas with my side of the family. We had the best breakfast ever that my sester made, we exchanged gifts, played a few rounds of Apples to Apples and then headed back home. I love Christmas morning with my sisters and dad. We are just missing my mom to make it complete. It always seems like something is missing, we all know what it is... but I know she is there with us.
Victor had to work Christmas evening so me and the kids visited our Garcia family for awhile before we turned in for the night! It was a beautiful day, 80 degrees, you really couldn't have asked for a more beautiful Christmas day! So thankful to everyone in our family on both sides for making this a great Christmas for the kids! I saw a friend post the other day on FB saying that she thought she loved Christmas so much as a child. Then he had children and it's even better! It's so totally true for me! They make my morning! Watching them open gifts and get so excited about them, it's beautiful! Alana is working on her thank you letters. It's a great way to practice her spelling and writing that she is so good at, while on break from school!

Alana and I had a girls movie day with Crystal and went to see Frozen! Such a great movie, can't wait for that to come out on Blu-ray!

Monday, December 9, 2013

The Greats!

I am totally ashamed to say that Jack was 11 months old before he meet his Great Grandparents for the first time! What a horrible grand daughter I am! We tried to head out to see them a few months back and it just didn't work out. Victor and I both had a day off and decided we were just going to drive out there! So we did, finally! Jack got to meet his Great Grandparents! It was so nice to see them, and I will make sure that another year doesn't pass by before we see them again!

Love this picture of Jack just looking up at his Great Grandpa Andy!

The babes with Great Grandma

And Great Granpa

One of my favorite parts of visiting has always been the lake! The deck and the dock that sits on the lake. Hopefully sometime this summer we will get out on a boat ride with the kids.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Breakfast with Santa

This year, like last we got to have Breakfast with Santa at Victor's hotel on the beach! It was fun to get the kids dressed up and put them on Santa's lap! Alana told Santa she wants a barbie house and the Barbie with a horse... Looks like it's going to be a barbie Christmas this year! I was a bit nervous about Jack. Although Alana never did it, I have seen tons of kids scream their heads off on Santa's lap. We sent Alana up first so she could talk to him in peace and then I dropped Jack off on his lap next to Alana and he looked up at him, and just stared. He look at us calling his name and never cracked a smile but never was scared either! Worked out perfectly for his first time on Santa's lap. (Ok, well second time, but it doesn't count if Grandma takes you and doesn't even tell me.. Not so happy about that)

He is a serious man! But my babes did look adorable all dressed up! They enjoyed the pancakes and the drive to Daddy's hotel. Always enjoyable! Adult party next week which was pretty awesome last year, so I'm expecting it to be just as awesome this year. (Plus I won't be "about to pop" as I was last year).

My handsome boys!

Me and my sweet Christmas babes!

Santa by the beach!

Happy boy! 11 Months old

Rosie Posey!

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Smart Girl

Alana received an award this week at school! Kindergarten has been pretty easy for her so far, she is doing really good in her class. Victor goes once a week to volunteer in her class and with a quick change of plans last week, I got to go in his place for that day! It was so interesting to see the different levels of kids in her class. From the kid that can barely spell "and", to the kid that needed no help to spell "hospital". Crazy! Out of about the 15 kids that were there, I was very happy to see Alana in the top 5 of those 15. She is a smart girl and loves to "play that game". It's really me asking her how to spell things and what sounds letters make. She loves to play it!
I left work and ran home to see her get her award, we had no idea what it was for. Every quarter the teacher picks out a few of the kids and they have an awards assembly. Alana received an award for Outstanding Academic Achievement in Language Arts! She was very proud and so happy we all came to cheer her on! She took a picture with the principal (which is fun for her at this age). So happy she is doing so well and I pray she always loves school this much!

Alana and her friend Hayden

Proud girl
Some cute on-lookers