3 + 1 = four

I know, it's just a tiny little peanut! But it's MY tiny little peanut that is baking inside me!!! This is love at first sight!!

Someone has been so excited to be a big sister!!

The week of my Relay for Life (pics coming soon) it was a stressful week. I laid in bed Sunday morning and my stomach started to feel sick. I thought I might throw up. Then I remembered a conversation that Crystal and I had about how bummed I was going to be when I had the visit from my aunt flow during Relay. Porta potties are no bueno. Hmm... So I counted the days since my last and knew I needed to take a test! Victor and I ran to the store to get a test and came home and tested. I made him go look to see if had one or two lines. He walked out of the bathroom and said "I THINK it has two lines" with a BIG smile on his face. You think?!?! Well it does or it doesn't, as I run into the bathroom to confirm for myself! IT DID! We cried, we were excited and freaking out at the same time. Holy crap. Game changer.

I made my first few phone calls to my usual suspects. Then it was off to Grandma's house to pick up Alana. Telling Alana was going to be so fun because for the past 6 months she had been talking about wanting a baby sister. Her teacher at school was pregnant so she knew a little bit about it. She even went as far as the month before I even found out, she drew our family picture with dad holding a little baby. She knew?!?! She hoped. We told Alana and she said REALLY?!?! So excited and gave me a big hug. We told her to go tell Grandma that mommy had a baby in her tummy. This would not have been the first time she told Grandma those words. Although this time it was the truth. Grandma brushed them off because she knew Alana had cried wolf before. Alana repeated it to Grandma 3 times before she took it seriously! It was a great moment!

Things have changed so much from the day I found out I was pregnant with Alana. Since then being on facebook I've known so many people to have been pregnant and then have a miscarriage. I've seen several of them play out on facebook and it's heartbreaking. I held it back until I could get to the doctor and heart that heartbeat for myself. In the meantime we've had so many changes going on I've been so stressed out. Which added to the stress of worrying about a miscarriage. Crazy how that works. Things are so much better now. At almost 9 weeks I got to see my peanut and see the amazing little heartbeat. The tears it brought to my eyes I can't even explain. The stress that is lifted off of me is amazing! I'm having another baby and I couldn't be happier. There is NEVER a perfect time to plan for a baby, but I feel like this is the best time ever! God knows what he is doing.